“I am awfully greedy; I want everything from life. I want to be a woman and to be a man, to have many friends and to have loneliness, to work much and write good books, to travel and enjoy myself, to be selfish and to be unselfish… You see, it is difficult to get all which I want. And then when I do not succeed I get mad with anger.” ― Simone de Beauvoir
I was, as any normal teenage would be, a mess. In all honesty i wouldve just answered this with the quote from above because that perfectly captures me at the start of this year. I love this "question", it really makes me think about how much ive changed over the year and yada yada yada. However, to understand how much ive changed this year i should probably explain last year me ( its pretty cringe worthy i used to be straight.)
not so tragic backstory, i moved here from Florida something literally everyone i talked to knows that because i implicitly state it. I was probably one of the most indifferent and apathetic you could meet for the first semester because i basically hated everything to do with my move here and i was just being a pain in the ass/ angsty teen. Because of this i would get in to "debates" aka me just ranting to any one about something that i believed strongly in with everyone- and i do mean everyone (just ask Mrs. Hicks) now thats like half of my not so tragic backstory that you didnt ask for.
in short, at the start of this year i was a mess. i had no where to go but no real reason to stay. i was lost figuratively and literally. spiritually, emotionally and physically. i was angry and i was honestly not ready to face life and adulthood even though i kept telling myself i was. i cant say that English with Mama G has shown me how to not be the bitter gay person i am but it has shown me to just let it be. i had a pretty firm grip on what i life and living meant to me but that changed this year not by a lot be enough to give me a different understanding on life. in short i learned how to understand life and what it would bring.
Thanks Mama G and thanks to everyone in IB, the last two years have been interesting. Good luck to everyone.
I have enjoyed getting to known you over these 2 years helynea. We have had some very interesting conversations and I think we have donned over the course of these 2 years. Especially with the physics struggle.
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